k’s teaching, how it works for me, as it plays out in my brain …
its the universal acid …
the first time i read dennett’s “Darwin’s Dangerous Idea” i pictured universal acid, as he described it, as being so corrosively powerful it ate up the entire universe clear back to the big bang, leaving nothing …
and thats what the teaching does to the entire structure/process of thought in my brain … it eats it up and leaves in its wake only the entire actual universe … as it is … without the mediation of perception …
it just takes the hint … of one miniscule drop of the teaching …
like an invisible sun, already there, which instantly incinerates the entire self, flesh and all and leaves nothing — an inferno of intensity which draws the essence of life out of the Earth … like the Sun of our solar system …
why sun worship is the original religion … and relates to the moon and stars in the night sky as the void out of which life emerges … consciousness, the substance of the universe …
well…its…uh…almost like…well…you know…i mean…uh…i dont know…maybe…no…yeah!…well, no…ok. lets just say its like
constantly on the hunt. But Darn!
the target sneakin’ up behind ya.
the wabbit turns to the audience and grins.
the hunt continues. Stymied but wewentwess, you continue to investigate.
may as well take a blind shot, bound to hit somethin’…
the seat of yo pants on fire.
gonna have to stop and think about it a minute.
AHA! this time with the new plan ya destined to succeed.
sensibility – awareness of and responsiveness toward something (as emotion in another)
well … it goes deeper than a professional soldier, ya know, its more like the spartans or the klingons, a whole culture built strictly on warfare. they like the extreme athletes of battle, have so completely mastered their techniques and tools of war that battle and death are like the performance of an art. They total discipline and wild abandon at the same time.
so zen, its like total space and nothing. The no-mind no-thinks no-thoughts about no-things. Beyond time. No need or desire. An endless elemental energy in the back of yo brain and behind yo eyes and yo mind’s eye so you can’t see it, but its there, a silently vibrating dynamo, throbbin’ with the rhythm of the universe.
so a zen warrior like a soldier fightin’ a battle everyday within himself and within the world. Not that there is a clear dividing line between the two. Because of consumate skill the battle takes little or no time, instantly ending and all the participants come through in better shape than they went in.
who the battle with? The self and the self of our common mind, playin’ out all in the physical world. There are forces in the world … so many … economical, ideological, biological, society a complex interplay of a multitude of forces comin’ at us continuously, we each like a vector, a focal point – all these forces are selfish – dominated by all the various fragments of our “self”. The idea is to be nothing so that no force moves ya.
that is death. The ending of the self. ‘Course “you” , the whole body/mind, the living organism right here now in the world. So livin’ in the world – the real world that is deteriorating so rapidly – becomes an exercise in responsibility, response to the emergency we all facin’ together. We already participatin’ in it.
and that is the revolution. Whether planetary forces crush us or we take responsibiliy for our own creation …
when you aint got nothin’ you aint got nothin’ to lose.
It could mean one or many different things or any combination thereof. Maybe that one is repugnant, physically, mentally, or socially – or that one, not actually repugnant, may feel so … as an accident of fate or instilled as a psychological program by whatever authority may have had influence.
A human being may do it alone because his or her vision is not known or has not been shared or may be perceived as inherently flawed.
Persons may proceed on they mission alone if it is judged too risky, difficult, or dangerous.
Others may be alone if they are imprisoned or exiled, whether rightly or wrongly.
Or one may proceed alone if involving others would curtail they freedom, theirs or the others.
Or it may just seem like the right thing at that moment.